[THiNK]

Tears in the dark, alone weeping,
crying and shouting alone,
years in loneliness, the silent screams,
piercing the soul to the bone.
I am the pain that’s left behind
outcast I am to all mankind
the tears I am that wet my eyes
the silent screams drawn in my sighs.
I am the thoughts that never die
I am each fear and tear and sigh
I am depression fed by all
I am rejection to my each call.
Alone I’ve been with hungry thoughts,
with eager eyes staring doors,
I’ve met avoidance, and felt it well,
I’ve lived a life, a living hell.

I am the eye that only cries,
I am the ear that feeds on lies,
I am the soul that dwells in sadness,
I am the mind that prowls in madness.

I am my thoughts that lie unspoken,
My faults will never be forgotten,
I am mistakes that come in numbers,
I am the peace preceding thunders.
I am the time I lived alone,
The sadness that is never shown,
I am one laugh or may be two,
Care not for me but just for you.
I am the sadness and depression,
I am the anger and the tension,
I am short-fused and I am angry
And for revenge I am so hungry
I am the one who’s never sorry,
I am the one for whom I am worried,
I am the one who cried for long,
I am the tears brought by sad songs.
I am the passion that was betrayed,
I am the soul that lies decayed,
I am the dirt, the steel that’s stained,
Behind excuses the pain that stayed,
always there…
I am the darkness, I am the light,
I am all evil and good in fight,
I am the music and harmony,
I am the frenzy and agony.

I am the eye that only cries,
I am the ear that feeds on lies,
I am the soul that dwells in sadness,
I am the mind that prowls in madness.

I am the winter and I’m the rain,
I am relief and I am pain,
I am the puppet on dancing strings,
I am the sum of seven sins.
(I am a master of all sins.)
I am the hangover, the day after,
I am the smile and I’m the laughter,
(I am the sadness, I am the madness)
I am the buyer and I’m the vendor,
I am the final, the last crescendo.
I am the father of faulty kids,
I am the sperm, I miss the seeds,
I am the mother of trained dogs,
I am so sick of all your gods.
I am the reason that people cry,
I am the best money can buy,
I am the liar and I’m the scruple,
I am so solid and yet not subtle.
For all who are sorry I am the one,
For all who call me I come undone,
In dark I dwell, and dark I am
For measured conscience I’m but a gram.
The wheels I am that get you moving,
The voice that makes the pain so soothing,
The eyes that host the sense of hate,
In slaughter present, I am but bait.

I am the eye that only cries,
I am the ear that feeds on lies,
I am the soul that dwells in sadness,
I am the mind that prowls in madness.

I am the hand that always helps,
I am the man collecting debts,
I am the feet that always run,
Far from the light, far from the sun.
I am the one to think alone,
I am not the one to do as shown,
I am the one to always judge,
The stuck mind that will just not budge.
For all your fears I am one more,
Engulfed in kindness my rotten soul,
For all your tears, I am the reason
I am the lie, the act of treason.
For all your loyalty I am betrayal,
For all your love I am the graveyard,
For all your dedication I was never there,
For all your will, I am not to share.
For all your lies, I’m building in,
For all my tears you live in sin,
For all my loneliness you are to blame,
I am all honour, you are all shame.
I am the bass in a band of sorrow,
I am the hope to die tomorrow,
I am the trigger in a blast of why’s,
I am the anger that inside lies.

My eyes are my psyche’s echo,
For that is how hollow it grows,
My thoughts are shameless, and they must end,
My mind no-one endows.

I am the eye that only cries,
I am the ear that feeds on lies,
I am the soul that dwells in sadness,
I am the mind that prowls in madness.

I am not you, and never will I be, – I am me.
I am a Dogma, a Belief, a Creed, – Indeed.
I am alone, but still I am, – not like some.
I am me, alone I stand, – but I do stand.