I balance
On the sharp edge of deception
An avalanche
Trickery at conception
Under valance
The dirty deed in erection
I balance
Equilibrium
Love, hate and apathy
At the podium
Vigilant in lethargy
In velum
Concealed planning entropy
Equilibrium
Darker
Contemplating the future
The choice haggler
Attempting escape is futile
The mind juggler
I defile
Darker
the most passionate kiss
in a glimpse of eclipse
when all hate collides
into lethargy divides
with a tiny silhouette
a pile of feelings in debt
human senses alert
sexually adept
all internal devotion
into inherent rejection
against a plan set in motion
reaching out for perfection.
Pauline,
where do you fit in
in this chronicle
this rehearsal
hate in reversal
as universal
as passion keen
tasteful as sin
Pauline!
Pauline,
princess and queen
of a beautiful fairytale
when all scruple will sail
far away to a land
where lust will ban
all holding back
succumb!
Pauline,
spur from the gene
a single violent bean
hosting within
all that is sin
Pauline …
Pauline,
Beatiful, majestical, queen
sensual, sexy, fit and lean,
give in,
let in,
dive in,
drop in,
Pauline …
Succumb and yield
for all sin,
is as always has been,
Pauline!
Pauline!
Leaving mother cloud
as if allowed
starting my trip
a rain drop on my own
in a storm of rain drops, alone
reluctant at first
driven by thirst
a trip to knowledge
scared but heroic
an angel devoid
carving through air
securing my share
of time and experience
safeguarded from
but now i’m free with the storm
sisters and brothers
running from our fathers
escaping the grip of control
leaving dead roots far behind
escaping a life defined and aligned
travelling through time
stepping over the line
making this one decision
just for myself
living life as the utmost wealth
mountains and seas
trees and leaves
things of utter beauty
first time witnessing on my own
in the spark of a moment feeling outgrown
racing through nature
feeling her nurture
a trip so marvellous
worthy of its cost
as we all rain drops hit against rocks
Mother Nature we came,
in glory to proclaim,
your excellence and beauty!
Evaporate us,
disintegrate us,
as vapour send us again,
back to the clouds,
our protector shrouds,
to our fathers and mothers,
myself and my brothers,
to join again with our roots,
where life source commutes,
and calumny refutes.
Mother nature you made us
here we all return
water we once were,
into water we’ll turn.
Rain falling from up high,
the Gods cry,
teardrops falling from a gray cloaked sky.
Someone leaving,
the memories they leave back,
teardrops falling from my eyes in the dark.
Memories invading a suffering mind,
memories making me wish I were blind,
memories, pain and sorrow together,
is that the meaning of love forever?
In paths of regret,
steps are bringing me,
a confusing mind,
memories feeding it.
Times happily spent,
gazing in each other’s eyes
(in each others’ arms)
times deeply hidden
under painful, hurting lies.
A mind chasing images in the past (in time),
it wouldn’t last
a love dead and still, from dust to dust.
Memories hacking into a hurting heart
Memories torturing me on her part
Memories, pain and sorrow together,
that is the meaning of love forever.
A heart carved in wood,
wishing I could,
rise up and do all that I should.
Initials on a log,
we carved them in together,
hers and mine and a heart
saying forever,
a tear,
dropping like feather,
hers and mine in a life together forever,
never.
A black sky,
shadows and clouds filling wet eyes,
someone left behind,
with their suffering mind,
someone leaving,
something strong dies,
once together,
promising forever,
never.
I want to die tonight,
can’t cry no more tonight,
cant carry on alone on this night.
My heart feels heavy tonight,
My heart paused beating tonight,
don’t think i’ll survive this night.
My eyes in a mist, my heart in the dust
my future, my present, nailed to my past.
Freedom wasted, desires submerged,
my own will dying.
Life goes on, people carry on,
My inside is dying.
I cant breathe tonight,
don’t want to live tonight,
cant spend alone one more night.
Not many needs but one,
Not many desires but one,
Not many requests but one,
One, rejected.
I am alone tonight,
for one more night,
please God make it last forever this night.